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Dear Breakup Girl,
I am a widowed 57 year old lady, attractive, slim and really looking for a
relationship with a single male. I found one on the net -- I know, a little
stupid. He lives within 100 miles of me in a place where I usually vacation and
we started emailing each other. Fom the start he kept saying " if the
chemistry is right" and that should have been a warning flag to me but
with years of unexperience in the dating field I thought chemistry was usually
something that had to be built, not instantaneous always. It usually takes
building a friendship first but evidently not in this day and age. This man,
whom I will not say is a fraud said in his ad that he was unattached with no
extra baggage, loved to dance, dine out, fish and go boating ... when in
reality he can't do any of those things due to a severe back injury. I met him
and accepted him even with his disability and spent time off and on with him
for the 3 days I was there. I did one stupid thing and that was to have sex
with him and when I got home from vacation he let me know there was no
chemistry between us but he would still like to see me as the sex was really
good.
I should have known better but like a fool I went back and although he
kisses me, holds me in his arms and is sometimes very passionate he still says
there is no chemistry. We enjoy a lot of the same things and I spend my time
and money going to see him. Next month I am supposed to see him again but have
come across several new ads in the personals that he has put in. I thought our
relationship was starting to grow as each time I've been with him he's very
affectionate and when I'm home e-mails me 7 or 8 times a day but after seeing
these ads maybe he's right and there is no "chemistry" on his part. I
am starting to have feelings for him and do everything in my power to make him
feel good about himself as he is nothing like he described himself in his ad
and really believed he was starting to have feelings for me too and was just
afraid to show emotion but now I'm starting to have second thoughts. I really
don't want to end this but can't take being hurt again. I would love to try to
let this relationship grow if there's a chance but I really don't know if there
is or not. Each time we're together he's more affectionate and it's not all
just sex but when I get ready to leave he lets me know if I start to have
feelings for him it will have to end. Please help me as I think I'm already in
over my head and just too old to play stupid games.
Thank you, I'm starting to lose a lot of self-confidence.
-- Nancy
Dear Nancy,
I'll bet you are. Not only is this guy messing with
your heart/mind, but you are not exactly thrilled with yourself for letting
him. And you are sapping your own self-confidence by trying to "make him
feel good about himself" ... without a heck of a lot of
backatcha.
So first let me try to restore some for
you.
1. It's not stupid to meet someone on the Net. It can
be a great, handy, efficient, unique, fruitful resource. Those who dismiss it
as universally lame is an excellent/hollow way to make them feel better about
their own lack of RL dates. Good/brave for you for taking the risk, making the
effort.
2. Warning signs, shmarning signs. Aren't warning
signs, by definition, things we miss? Hey, you're 57, you're "really
looking," you find someone with at least typing skills within a hundred
mile radius, you go for it. At that point, one person's "warning
sign" is another's "excuse to dodge commitment." Whatever. You
did what seemed/felt right at the time. Again, brave.
3. When someone kisses you, holds you, etc. --
especially after a dry spell -- hey, it's hard to say "no" -- even
when they're saying "no" followed by the word "chemistry."
I'm not saying this is advisable, but I am saying it's
understandable.
And about that "no chemistry" thing. Well,
what is that about? I think you're on the right track (see, again,
you're not so "stupid") when you say that at first you thought he was
"just afraid to show emotion." I mean, there are a million examples
out there -- "His Girl Friday," "Moonlighting," etc. --
where people put on a great big show about resisting, even hating, each other,
but you know they're really gaga. The date doth protest too much, yadda yadda
yadda.
But in this case, Nancy, I don't think that's the
deal. I think you -- as you say, too, remember -- are attractive (in all senses
of the word). And I'm sure he finds you attractive, too. But my sense is that
he also finds you: convenient. You say ending this will hurt. It
hurts already, Nancy. So place/answer a new ad. You are too old to
play stupid games -- but you have been since you were, like, 17. You are,
however, not too old to be with someone who thinks you totally rock and --
bonus -- who does not think "sex," "feelings," and
"relationship" are mutually exclusive. Find that person -- that is,
remind yourself that YOU are worth holding out for him -- and you will find the
Fountain of Self-Confidence.
Love,
Breakup Girl
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